i'm taking one step towards you, baby

I sighed and walked out into the fresh air, I was finally free from that hell-hole hospital. I had started eating again. As much as I hated it, I wanted out. I got a cab back to my place, got my things together, loaded up my car, and made my way back to Yale to see Jamie. It took forever, but I finally got there. I ran to Jamie's dorm and knocked on the door. She opened it up, her eyes getting wide as she saw me.
"Bre, what are you doing here? I thought you were in the hospital in Tulsa! When did you get out?!" She screamed, hugging me.
"Earlier today, actually." I laughed, scratching my head. "I came here as soon as I was let out."
I looked around the room, noticing her roommates were not there.
"I can't believe they let you out." Jamie shook her head, smiling.
"I started eating." I shrugged, acting like it was no big deal.
"WHAT?!" She screamed, hugging me. "YOU'RE NOT GOING TO DIE NOW!"
"Jamie, chill." I laughed, getting her off of me.
"Whoa, what's going on in here?" I heard a guy ask. Jamie and I looked towards the door. It was Mason and some guy I didn't know. "We heard someone screaming and came to check it out."
"That was Jamie." I pointed, laughing. Jamie just gave me a look, and I stopped.
"Vince, what are you doing here?" Jamie asked.
"I came to ask you out on a date." Vince winked at Jamie. I could tell she didn't want to, so I decided to speak up.
"How about a double date? You and James, Mason and I." I offered, looking over at Jamie. She gave me a small smile and I knew I had done her a favor.
"Sure, I'm fine with it." Mason shrugged. Vince nodded and then both of the guys left, giving us time to get ready. I went to my car and got my bags while Jamie showered. By the time I had everything in the room she was out of the shower, so I got in and cleaned up. She was done fixing her hair by the time I got out of the shower. I fixed my hair while she picked out an outfit. By the time I was done fixing my hair she had an outfit on and was starting to help me pick out an outfit. I made Jamie wear a dress, while I wore a pair of skinny jeans, a tank top, and a jacket. Once we were dressed, we both brushed our teeth and by the time we were ready, it was about 30 minutes before the guys said they'd show up. So Jamie and I decided to catch up.
"So, who's this Vince fellow?" I asked, folding some shirts.
"Some jackass I met one night when I was drunken," She sighed, playing with her phone. I guessed she was talking to someone back home.
"Cute," I laughed, putting my suitcase back on the floor. We talked about nonsense until the boys came back to our room at 7:00.

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Vince and Mason took us to a very nice restaurant. Jamie and I sat beside each other, while Vince and Mason sat across from us. Mason kept trying to play footsie with me, but I ignored him. I had more important things on my mind. We ordered our food and ate, Vince and Jamie flirted, and I think by the end of dinner, Jamie was actually starting to like him.
Vince and Jamie drove back to the campus, but Mason insisted on walking me back.
"So where have you been for the past couple of weeks?" Mason asked, looking over at me as we walked.
"The hospital." I answered, not looking at him.
"What? Why?" He asked, concerned.
"I attempted suicide, and I hadn't eaten anything in the past couple months." I shrugged like it was no big deal, which it kinda wasn't.
"Why would you do that?" He asked.
"It's a long story, and I really don't have time to tell it to you." I wanted to get away from him, but I didn't know my way around this place. We finally made it to the dorm building, and I thought I could get away from him. I was mistaken. He moved closer to me, pushing me up against the side of the building. He was leaning in to kiss me but I pushed him away. "Get off Mason."
"What the hell Bre?" He asked, trying to kiss me again.
"Stop it," I pushed him away again. "I don't like you, I have feelings for someone else."
"What do you mean, someone else?" Mason asked, giving up on trying to kiss me - thank God.
"I mean, I don't like you - like that. I like someone else, I have for a while now. I was wrong to lead you on, I'm sorry." I walked into the building, up the stairs, and to Jamie's dorm. The door was locked so I figured she was busy doing something. I walked back down the stairs and out into the night air. I decided to go for a walk. I walked down to the little bakery down the street and went inside.
There weren't many people inside, and most of them were old couples. I got a seat by one of the windows and watched the people inside the shop. I watched a little old man and his little old wife share a cupcake. I smiled a little, but stopped when I felt like a creep. So I looked at a different couple. An old man and woman were holding hands and smiling at each other. I got tired of people watching pretty soon, so I got up and walked to the counter, ringing a little bell.
A girl about my age came to the counter, smiling. "How may I help you?" She asked.
"Urm, can I have a cupcake?" I asked, getting my wallet out of my purse. She nodded and got a cupcake out for me. I gave her the money for it, and then thanked her, taking my cupcake with me.
I started my walk back to Jamie's dorm. I tore little pieces out of my cupcake, and nibbled on them. It was better than not eating at all. I looked down at it as I passed under a street light. It was chocolate, and there were little candy hearts on it. I felt sick.
I wrapped the cupcake back up and ran the rest of the way to Jamie's dorm. I ran up the stairs and to her door. This time it was unlocked. I walked inside, throwing my purse on the floor.
"Hey Bre, where have you been?" She asked, then she looked down at my hand. "What's that?"
"It's a cupcake, you want it?" I asked, tossing it to her. She caught it and opened it, smiling. "I went to the bakery after Mason tried to kiss me."
"I thought you liked him." Jamie said, a little confused.
"HA! You're funny James, you know I don't like anyone right now." I laughed, taking my shoes off. Jamie just winked at me, and I took that as she knew I was lying. Of course she knew. She knows everything. That's why her hair is so big. It's full of secrets.
I got ready for bed, and then made fun of Jamie for eating that cupcake. Finally, she got ready to sleep, but not before telling me about her night with Vince ;)

Love, Brenan♥